Word for Oct. 15, 2007

Objectification ~ (əb-jěk’tə-fĭ-kā’shən) - Noun part

** To present as an object, esp. of sight, touch, or other physical sense; make objective; externalize.

** To make objective, external, or concrete.

** A concrete representation of an abstract idea or principle.

What to do…

I’ve felt flat, emotionless, and indifferent for a few days. This is not a good feeling. I have a list of about five different contributing factors… but, I won’t go into ALL of that here – for the world to see. Well, maybe a few.

About seven years ago I was diagnosed with degenerative disc disease. Lots of people have back problems, “slipped discs”, herniation, etc. Basically though, it falls into two categories, it seems. Chronic, permanent, progressive OR oopsie I need PT, cause this hurts like a bitch! The pain is the same.

Mine is primarily limited to my lumbo-sacral area. You know, sciatic nerve, leg pain, lower back, blah, blah, blah. Long story short, for those who know the process, I have: done PT, gotten epidurals, gotten facet injections, and finally YEARS of facet rhizotomies. (destroying some of the tiny nerve endings by an electrified hot probe technique) I also have my Sacro-Iliac joint to deal with. 

Anyway THIS is one of the reasons I love to dive, snorkel, swim… anything to take pressure off of my spine. (It’s also why I have a masahista come to my house! ) But, for 2 months or so I have been suffering worse than I have in years. I still have some superficial numbness from the rhizotomies, but it’s not the superficial part that benefits me. 

I refuse to get back on the pain med cycle. Ya know when you’re wearing a fentanyl patch and taking oral meds too that nothing good can come of it. Don’t know what fentanyl is? Look it up. Doctors don’t fool around with prescribing meds where I’m from… so when I have 2 surgeons and an anesthesiologist who specializes in pain therapy giving me these and thinking of different meds to mix it up… Yeah, I have a little pain. *snark*

Long & short… it sucks, I’m pissed at the world, and at 36 (I could have worse things, I know) I just wish I could float away! So, I do the best I can in my “under-the-sea” heaven.

The diving has been shit for a couple of weeks. Sure I have fun and I dive, in spite of the currents. But, I haven’t gotten to do the more adventurous, challenging dives. That’s what I miss.

So, tomorrow damnit I’m going south to a white beach and I’m going to drift snorkel. haha I walk up the beach, hop in the water, stick my face in the water and let these blasted currents show me a good time. The car ride there sucks, but all in all… yeah, it’s what I need. Sunshine, blue skys, ocean breezes, and my water paradise.

I’m gonna stop my bitching right there. Hopefully tomorrow I will have something positive to write about… something worth reading.

GOOOO CATS!!!

  OMG, OMG, OMG *hyperventilates*

Okay, this isn’t much of a post… BUT!!! Holy COW!!! UK Wildcats defeated #1 LSU 43 – 37 in TRIPLE OT. Yes, you read that right triple OT! 

Lemme give you a little info./history on UK… in case you don’t know.

*** Kentucky has not beaten a #1 ranked team since 1964. (Mississippi) Heck, there hasn’t even been a #1 team beaten in the regular season since 2003. (Kansas St./Oklahoma)

*** ESPN is coming to (going to) UK to actually do their College Game Day show from Commonwealth Stadium! That is too wild – but, go wildcats!

*** Kentucky fans rushed the field for the second time in this season, thereby being slapped with a $50,000 fine. So, UK fans, send the money to the UK Athletics Department… cause it might happen again this season.

*** I don’t know much about the football team besides the QB – Andre Woodson & RB – Rafael Little. Props to Woodson for keeping it together and getting it done in the OTs. And, Rafi, get better soon!!! I’m not sure how the Cats did this without you. (Not to take anything away from the team.)

***So, next week, look out Gators… the Cats are comin’ on strong. Good luck Wildcats! WTG.